earlier on as i was writing for my wordpress blog, i had no intention to reveal my experience with God during planetshakers conference'o9. somehow, writing it there felt wrong. but as i read yuting's blog, somehow i felt like i should share on those amazing 4 days here instead. (:
before conference, my life was shrouded with the spirit of intimidation. confusion, lethargy, depression - everything pastor john bevere said. every single day, God shed light on things in my life i never knew existed and had to change.
with worship, God needed me to stop rationalising and start seeing not with my eyes, but with my heart - to truly lose myself in giving Him praise. because after all, worship is never about me, but about Him. and singing with all my heart - not just all my voice - exemplifies that. and somehow, He showed me that while music is my passion, it isn't my calling. yes, He did give me a voice to sing to Him; just not on stage. but with my heart, all my heart. <3
things in my past i thought i had obliterated started coming back, and of course many of them lead back to you. so much of what i am now leads back to you, without me even realising it. choral music, my days in dunman high, the decision to come to melbourne, and even my faith. it all happens for a reason, that much i know. and also, it's time to really let go. not just let go of what i felt, but to let go of you in all its entirety.
and in other instances where my wilfulness really embarrasses me, God still manages to make it good. some time in 2005 (on this very blog, ironically), i wrote that all i wanted to do was to sing, read and write all my life. it was written when i was so in love with choir (and my position in it - how immature), when i hated the singapore education system for the simple fact that we needed to learn math and physics. yet God told me "yes, you will sing. you will sing to me with the voice i have given you. you will read my word and set other people free. and everything you write will lead back to me. write for me. write, so that others will wonder what is it about mere words which somehow manage to capture emotion and love so accurately. so yes, you will sing, read and write all your life. for me."
with those words, i was left speechless beyond words. what God has done so far is really amazing, but really - i think what's gonna happen after conference is the true magic of Him. after being impacted every single day, after those amazing 4 days where every breath we drew was indeed hallelujah, it's time to let the church leave the building. it's time to live in the supernatural realm every single day, stepping out in faith and believing with all our hearts that He is Lord.
but for now, it's back to assignments. Lord, help me edify you through my many essays.
love you guys! xoxo
exams =
le sigh.
3 more days;
then it's catchups, christmas shopping, boxhill, more shopping, cleaning, movies, resting, and YLSS, and then home.
home is where the heart is,
and your heart will lead you home. <3
Monday, October 27, 2008
since livejournal is down
yes, it's a rarity that i'm blogging here but since my darling livejournal is down (i have absolutely no idea why) my blogger account remains faithful. (:
it's been an interesting few days since i last updated in my other blog (go to holdingonto-you.livejournal.com), and heaps of stuff that i'm beginning to understand, but yep! shall reserve the details for when i am finally able to update.
for now, the excitement lies in God's amazing prowess to make me write even when my brain has totally fried and refuses to churn out any more words. THANK YOU DADDY GOD I LOVE YOU. He's indeed awesome in the awesomest ways, you have no idea.
stomachaches are horrible. :(
okay, that's all for now! remember to check the other blog out yeah?
lots of love,
d
Monday, September 29, 2008
:(
i don't want to read anymore.
and, i need music to save me. like now now now now now.
aiyo
i know this is none of my business, but...
she's leaving in four days.
don't you think it's time to get a move on?
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
you still rock my world
hello people, as you can tell this space is kind of dead for the past few months. to peruse a more active blog, please click
HERE.
in the meantime, do check back here because i might update some random stuff, you never know. ;)
lots of love,
diane
Sunday, May 18, 2008
quote of the day
well it's not really a quote this time, but rather... someone's msn nickname.
guess who?
...
none other than:
CHEONG RAYRIN!
bass SL and student conductor of dunman high school choir, 2005-2006
anyway, here's his msn nick -
Victoria Junior College Choir is 4th in the world, and 2nd Mixed Choir in the world. and his personalised msg -
Dunman High School Choir is 864th in the world. Merely add 86 in front of VJChoir :DHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
okay i'm being mean.
when jasmine and i found out that dhschoir made it to the top 1000 last year, we were like, "
we are in the top 1000?!"
let this be an encouragement to my juniors: push up the rankings! but mostly, sing because you love the music. and because you love choir. (:
lots of love,
diane
Child of God,
DIANE;
10051990
Nanyang Primary School; Class of 2002
Dunman High School; 4i'o6
DHS choir; Soprano
Trinity College Melbourne
VJChoir Christmas Caroling'o7; Soprano 1
The University of Melbourne; Arts (Media&Communications)
Hope Church Singapore; East
Bthree & Y-Hope Choir
Planetshakers City Church; ULU
5 & PlanetUNI Choir
Loves,
God, Singing, Reading, Family, Friends, Giving, Seeing others smile, Literature, Media and Communications, Soprano, Albert House'o7, Siblings in Christ, Peaches, Chocolates, Tim Tams, my friend Steven's Carbonara Pasta, Green Grapes, Fried Carrot Cake, Shopping, Rainbows, &all of God's beautiful creations in the world. :D
Desires,
-To grow more in Him
-Everyone I love to be happy
-Study Bible
-iTunes gift card ;)
-The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
-Vanishing Acts by Jodi Picoult
-Gifted by Nikita Lalwani
-Duet by Kimberley Freeman
-Twilight by Stephenie Meyer
-New Moon by Stephenie Meyer
-Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer
-DHS choir jacket
-Late Tuesday's albums
-A Fine Frenzy's album
-More $
-More discipline in studying and completing my work
-Sing with the Victoria Junior College Choir
-Get into Melbourne Uni's BA (Media&Comm) in 2008
-you to smile(:
Eye Candy,
The Simpsons Movie
Die Hard 4.0
No Reservations
Ratatouille
License to Wed
Stardust
Chuck and Larry
Good Luck Chuck
December Boys
The Prince & Me
Amazing Grace
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End
Brokeback Mountain
The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
Happy Birthday
The Notebook
Singapore Dreaming
Just Follow Law
P.S. I Love You
881
The Kite Runner
Hairspray
High School Musical 2
Fred Claus
The Golden Compass
A Walk to Remember
200 Pounds Beauty
Secret
Enchanted
Bring it On
Leave your Footprints,
Lovelies,
Music&Lyrics,
我怀念的; Stefanie Sun
我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么
想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了
想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了
我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔
我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说
